I made a mistake. A friend who never was.

I sit here fully clothed
But feel like I'm being ogled at
like I'm naked
I see you stripping me with your eyes
Nothing contained in your head
I see what you fantasize
I tried to change you
You tried to do the same
But people like me are few.
People like me? Not stubborn
But strong in the mind
Since we were born.
Sticking to what we believe is right
and what we believe is wrong.
And for what we believe in we fight.
You tried changing me for the worse
I tried to change you for the better
Little did I know that you were a curse.
You gained my trust and lured me
Showed me possibility
Set my mind free.
You inspired me to find beauty in all
And I was happy
Until you led me to my fall
I realised I forgot what my ideals were
I was against drugs
But here you are.
And not the good kinds
Cause you made me an object
One of your finds
And I tried not to believe
But my eyes saw and ears heard
And now I tell you to leave.
I don't hear your excuse
Cause I know you spoke the truth
I'm not letting you my innocence  misuse
Because a wicked soul will never become good
He will kill others physically and mentally
And will find pleasure in their pool of blood
I sit here fully clothed
 but feel naked at the same
Never do I want to hear
The whisper of your name

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