Fighting the enemy inside

Did you ever pick that knife

And bring it to your hand

With hope for it making you feel better

Or taking you to a better land

But still fought these urges

Keeping yourself strong

Saying this pain is temporary

It won’t last long

You say your life’s a mess and

This is not what it’s supposed to be

This is not what I expected

This is not me

Looking at all the skinny girls

Just laughing amongst themselves

and a tear rolls down your cheek

While you hide behind the bookshelf

To hate your self

To hide your sorrow

Trying to convince yourself

There will be a better tomorrow

You portray yourself strong

Not a care for a thing

But you know it for a fact

Deep inside you’re bleeding

You must know

You have an enemy inside

Who is trying to hurt

And tell you nothing's all right

But trust me when I say

This day shall come

When you fight against yourself

And this enemy shall be done

We are all in the same game

Just different levels

We are in the same hell

Just dealing with different devils

But till then be an artist

Do keep painting smiles

Be an actress

And hide your sorrow

But silently be a doctor

Fixing a broken heart

This is a secret

Only you and I know

-Kamya Ashok

15/9/2014