Love with the monster
I created a monster I came to fall in love with. And to not tell him is what hurts... Sitting next to him looking at how beautiful he looks when he sleeps, like a little child- innocent. It breaks my heart to know that I am unable to tell him, fearing the loss of friendship.
It aches and I want to rub his hair and hold his hand, to kiss him on his cheek 'cause he looks so adorable. There is nothing I can do but look at how beautiful he is and wish that he'd hold me tight every night and show me the world is not such a bad place.
He has already shown me there is more to the world, made me begin to think maybe the world ain't so bad. He knows my secrets and has accepted me for being me. He doesn't treat me differently after knowing my dark side, and I really thank him for that. He respects my privacy and I am thankful for that, but I constantly feel like I must be transparent towards him.. I want him to know me completely, sins and all.
The thought of being this close to him and then being separated for what seems like forever is unbearable. And to think we have become so close... Why is the world beautiful yet cruel.
It's like someone shows you warmth, heat, sunlight after years of harsh winter and give you only a few seconds to enjoy it. It's marvellous how one can make you and break you. Help you stand on your feet but being in their arms is the only thing that makes you go weak in the knees.
I crave for his hug every day. I wait for a new day just so I can see him, to see him smile. Even the way he whines is adorable. He went from silent and shy, to sassy and bold. For wanting not to be touched to giving free hugs. I have seen him grow in whatever little time I knew him. He has grown into someone I had never expected him to be. All the effort I put in to get him to talk, and now he speaks. Loud, clear, with pride. But what I have fallen in love with the most is the fact that he talks to me, it's the same yet it's different. It makes me feel special, it makes me feel wanted for once. For once I feel like there is a better tomorrow.
My monster you came dressed as a boy, behaved like a gentleman, had fun like tomorrow doesn't exist, fussed like a spoiled child. You wore your horns with pride and I failed to see it.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE MONSTER.
(P.S. I am sorry)
It aches and I want to rub his hair and hold his hand, to kiss him on his cheek 'cause he looks so adorable. There is nothing I can do but look at how beautiful he is and wish that he'd hold me tight every night and show me the world is not such a bad place.
He has already shown me there is more to the world, made me begin to think maybe the world ain't so bad. He knows my secrets and has accepted me for being me. He doesn't treat me differently after knowing my dark side, and I really thank him for that. He respects my privacy and I am thankful for that, but I constantly feel like I must be transparent towards him.. I want him to know me completely, sins and all.
The thought of being this close to him and then being separated for what seems like forever is unbearable. And to think we have become so close... Why is the world beautiful yet cruel.
It's like someone shows you warmth, heat, sunlight after years of harsh winter and give you only a few seconds to enjoy it. It's marvellous how one can make you and break you. Help you stand on your feet but being in their arms is the only thing that makes you go weak in the knees.
I crave for his hug every day. I wait for a new day just so I can see him, to see him smile. Even the way he whines is adorable. He went from silent and shy, to sassy and bold. For wanting not to be touched to giving free hugs. I have seen him grow in whatever little time I knew him. He has grown into someone I had never expected him to be. All the effort I put in to get him to talk, and now he speaks. Loud, clear, with pride. But what I have fallen in love with the most is the fact that he talks to me, it's the same yet it's different. It makes me feel special, it makes me feel wanted for once. For once I feel like there is a better tomorrow.
My monster you came dressed as a boy, behaved like a gentleman, had fun like tomorrow doesn't exist, fussed like a spoiled child. You wore your horns with pride and I failed to see it.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE MONSTER.
(P.S. I am sorry)
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